Among the e-mails of a long-gone past, i suddenly got in these rapids of thoughts that conveyed into one single subject...

...Loneliness.

And i wasnt thinking about mine, in particular, but how the general behavior nowadays seems to favorite it humongously! Just stop and notice the signs as they slap us in the face everyday:
Parties filled with beautiful girls wearing evermore transparent clothes, arriving alone and leaving alone. Managers, lawyers, engineers who have studied, worked, reached an enormous professional success... living alone. There are women who hire men to dance with them in parties, the ones called "Personal Dancers". Isn't that weird?
And that loneliness isn't just sex-driven, if it was it would be easily solved. What we really miss is walking around hand to hand, the giving and receiving carress without having to dig for it, is making dinner for someone you like and then know you two will just cuddle till you sleep. Those simple things that we've been losing in the middle of this "blind evolution".

We've been deliberately priorizing our careers, prodution, like we're all robots, machines with no capacity to actually feel anything. That which may sound so simple seems to get farther away from us everyday because of this sea made of fear and apathy.

And the internet uniting thousands even millions of lonely people shows us this emense wall of beautiful, unreal plastic-happy faces, which are impossible to reach.
Our lives have been lasting longer and longer but how much of it are we actually living? We've been turning ourselves into beautiful pictures, delaying the coming of age but feeling always lonelier.

I know i may be sounding like an unhappy lonely old guy right now, but its just the opposite! I had to face these facts so i could come to write this. Everyone wants someone besides them but nowadays it looks stupid, demodé, square...ridiculous.

Well i choose being ridiculous instead of frustrated, i'll simpy say all the gibberish i feel like saying cause i know now that the time i can use to be happy is really short and every moment that goes away never comes back. That beautiful person who walked past you earlier on the street...you may never get to see her again! And maybe she was your one true chance to reach a sincere smile.You can be a successful businessman who laughs of himself when he trips or a rich lawyer who makes a mess when she is having an ice cream and still laughs about it. What you cant be is someone who thinks that "living" is 'ridiculous' or that the wind cant mess up your hair cause you have to look absolutely perfect all the time, or that we cant walk up to someone and say: "c'mon! let's have some good and bad moments together even though one of us, or both of us, will probably want to break up at some point...but if i dont ask you to be with me for the rest of my life right now...i know i'll regret it for the rest of my life"

I prefer just looking like a fool than feeling like one.